VARGA — FCRTYKILLS.

Varga casts his gaze down, feeling what little hope and resolve he has fracture. He should have known better than to expect forgiveness, or mercy–from the strongest death dealer their world had ever seen.

Her dare doesn’t go unnoticed, he thinks quickly; trying to find an explanation that would be good enough to satisfy her. He had only been following orders. He himself, held no contempt for Selene or her child.

“A soldier must follow his orders…whether he likes them or not. Had I not followed Semira’s command…I would have been put to death. I never wished to kill my own kind…some of the recruits were my friends….but I had my orders.” Varga raised his head, misery swimming in his gaze. “I am only a footsoldier, my lady. I followed my orders with the understanding that if I didn’t…Semira would have me burned at stake in the courtyard, under the high noon sun.”

“I have no hate in my heart for you, my lady. Nor your mate and child. I dislike pureblooded lycans only…as they are the enemy that needs to be fought. The only acts I have made of my own volition recently…were to pledge my loyalty to Lord David and fight with him in battle. If I am to be executed…I will plea no further for my life. I wish to apologize for what I did.”

Varga held his tongue on one matter. He’d loved Semira. Despite the abuse she’d dealt to him, he’d loved her. He’d betrayed her to side with the rightful leaders, and that, tormented him. He was indirectly responsible for her death, but wholly responsible for the death of Thomas–whom he had looked up to for centuries.

          his regret for what’s happened is obvious, and selene cannot find it in herself to hold it against him. that being said, he still must pay for what he’s done to their coven, and it won’t be easy, nor will he earn anyone’s trust anytime soon. but as varga goes on, the elder’s head will dip in order to watch him closely on his knees. he is no threat, simply doing as he’d been told, and to fault him for that would be almost cruel… but again, his butchery will not go unpunished.

          ❛ your apology is accepted. what you did at david’s side was brave. ❜   it took courage, as well, but selene won’t voice that; he mustn’t be encouraged so much just yet.   ❛ but your crimes against your own kind cannot be ignored, and you must answer for them… i leave your punishment to you, however. if it is reasonable, then it shall be approved. ❜   truthfully, after what semira’s done to them all, selene cares little for his feelings for the other vampire. not another thought is given to the traitor, so the elder cannot see the adoration varga had for the deceased female; not that she’d worry herself with such emotions, anyways.